Life Lately / Intro

I’m sure I’m not the only one who feels lost and behind in life navigating their twenties. I’m in a constant cycle of feeling so sure and then so lost that nothing feels secure.

I’m not dating anyone, I’m struggling with feeling unsatisfied at work, it’s hard to balance post-covid homebody-ness with spending time with friends (especially during the week, or as we’d still say ‘a school night’), and it’s incredibly hard to meet new people in the digital age.

I’ve reached a point in my career where I’m reevaluating and rerouting how I define my value. For a long time (and I mean many many years), I’ve defined myself through my work and through my career. But I’ve hit a major roadblock that has sent me into a spiral (if you haven’t done this yet in your twenties, just prepare yourself).

So I’m processing.

I’m processing what everyday joy really means and where it comes from. Up to this point, I’ve let my joy come from others, from external validation - but that’s not really joy is it?

“While often used interchangeably, happiness and joy have distinct nuances. Happiness is a temporary emotional state, often triggered by specific events or circumstances. Joy, on the other hand, is a deeper, more enduring state of contentment and well-being that can persist even in the face of adversity.” ..thank you Google AI.

I’ve been missing true joy in my life for a long time now, and somewhere along the way, I lost myself. In my small corner of the internet, I want to write and explore and process.

If that interests you or if you’re going through something similar, by all means pull up a chair, grab your favorite blanket and tuck in. We’ll process together.